I can relate. So for me, it isn't about "bipolar disorder" like it is in the doctor's office or the line at the pharmacy, it's about adapting. I hate feeling depressed but, even more I hated wishing I could feel depressed on medication. I know how to cope with my moods or I can learn to but, I don't know how to cope with being labeled and treated. I don't really know how to be a victim so, accepting the treatment of a mood disorder victim doesn't work for me.