I would explore the fear that keeps what you want to talk about hidden.

I wonder if the idea about being special is about what the risk is, if you talk. Do you risk losing that feeling of being special? Or will it prevent you from achieving the status of being special?

I have fears of sounding stupid to my therapist, of being boring, of disappointing her, and so on. The bigger the risk feels at the moment, the harder it is to talk.
Not that sitting there fidgeting and feeling frustrates is easy...