I focus without, not into myself as much as I can when I have control of my thoughts, that, especially is on my kids and what I have to and can do for them. The more I can do this, even in my bouts with emotional storms that come and go, I find that it remains in the back of my mind... I can't lose it completely. I just can't. They have no where to turn if I wasn't there for them. It means a lot to have someone to lean on you, it really makes you step up, even without thinking. As far as I know most BPD are truly empathetic and compassionate. But we get all caught up in ourselves that it doesn't always show.. I say if you can, as much as you can amplify that good trait in you...

I don't know if I'm making sense or helping so ...

Have some popcorn and feel better

~S4