I find myself in a situation from time to time where I am ducking from flying objects thrown by an angry man who is quite a bit larger than I am. always afraid of getting hit or beaten or hurt by his proudly uncontrolled, rage-filled temper, I have even found myself a contact target for his hands, slapping me around in a wrath waiting for retaliation. generally, I remain non-responsive to any contact or pain, regardless of its intensity, and simply glare into his eyes to show a lack of feeling or an inability to feel pain ... if I can see it coming. however, each and every time without exception, I walk away from such incidents in a rage of my own, wanting to cause semi-permanent damage to his face hoping to put a stop to his threats and fits. it seems to me that any time I find myself being threatened or assulted (verbally or otherwise), I become so enraged that, in the stead of fear, I feel a cringeing need in my heart to destroy or severely damage someting. unless something is thrown at me, in which case I will recoil and duck automatically without any chance of choosing my movement ... but later I am ablaze with anger. I am not looking for another person to tell me I need to get out of this situation and away from this person ... that is a generic response I have heard a million times that has yet to answer any questions that I have about my responses. I need someone who really knows what they are talking about to answer these questions: why would fear lead to such anger and rage if on any other day I am a peaceful and likeable man? why do I become so angry when I respond in fear (as when I duck) or should be in fear (as when threatened)? why would I become so enraged if my life were threatened? is this dangerous?