((Alisha88)),

Sigh...I have to admit that I struggle with that myself. I don't know what I want anymore either and I don't have that old me drive like I used to have. I think it is the PTSD that does that. I get very frustrated with it because I should be appreciating things more and yet I often feel distant inside.

I am not sure you can go by me though because what I was "passionate" about was so destroyed and I have been kept in a lawsuit for so many years now, I am very tired. For me this long process has kept me in the trama, never getting a chance to just let it go because I have to keep all the details alive in my brain. And the lawyer I have been working with has been a terrible match for me and I am stuck with him.

There is depression that comes with PTSD. I have not taken any antidepressants because I can't get past the side effects. I don't know if antidepressants even work, there is so much controversy about them, Ugh.
With therapy, I am much better than I was, but I do still struggle. I just keep at it. My T says it would really help if this lawsuit would be over so I can finally just move on.