thanks everyone. im not even sure that i described it well.. maybe it doesnt make any sense because when i shared it with my T.. i don't htink she quite understood either. i dunno. Its not a talking to myself type thing. and its not reliving scripts from my parents really either. I don't know what it is. possibly ego states as you guys brought up before. I think im a oddity. dang it. it would be nice to finally understand what this is.