Hi ajmich, I post alot in this forum, but I have never experienced anyone I know commiting suicide. With all the loss you have been through, I don't doubt you are struggling with PTSD. PTSD is not just something the Vets suffer from, all kinds of people struggle with it.

I am glad to know that you are getting help and are finding some relief or breakthroughs with therapy, keep with the therapy, it sounds like you have alot to work through.

I am sorry for all your loss, I can't imagine having that many losses to struggle with.

God Bless you
(((Hugs)))
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