lol..I guess I had some fun times but I did it mostly for the numbing effect....I used to be able to do coke recreationally and that was only once every blue moon but once me and my ex fiance split I kinda dove straight into it and the worst part was I was getting it for free (I guess I'm just a fun person to do coke with....I never had to pay for it and all my friends who did it were always just setting it in front of me telling me to have at it...or even bringing it to me at work if they came in to have a beer)....and than a few of my other friends had xanax and I'd ask them for some because it kinda made me forget how sad I was....so I guess I really just went from being super down in the dumps to being able to go out and have fun with my friends without crying every ten minutes...lol. And I'd drink red bull and vodka all the time so I always had that extra boost too. But after a few months of every single day being drunk/ coked out/ zombied out I'd get completely depressed when I'd come down so I knew I had to kick the habit so I actually quit my bartending job (which was a 20 minute commute anyway in a tiny, dying tourist town in Southern AZ) and I had to stop hanging out with those friends too. Than I got a pretty good job, got a promotion, than quit to work at the liquor store which actually turned out to be a living hell....I've never worked for worst people in my life before.