I had been diagnosed with Bipolar NOS last year. I wasn't happy with my doctor so I went to a new one. He says I am Borderline Personality Disorder even though I have none of the symptoms I have seen online.
I started seeing a psychiatrist last year who after only seeing me for ten minutes said I was bi-polar even though I had no manic episodes. I never saw him again even though I stayed with his practice for a year. I saw A PHRN who was pretty good. I had gone in for anxiety and depression. I was diagnosed with ADD. I had some issues with getting told that the doctor didn't want to do something and I found it not acceptable for someone who had barely seen me to make any decisions about my care.
So I tried another doctor this week. He spent to hours with me asking questions but seem to more interested in the questions than the answers. After the two hours, he suggests that I have PTSD (which is likely) and Borderline Personality Disorder which after researching is not likely. I don't have displays of anger. I am very tolerant of being alone. I actually prefer it. I have no B&W thinking and I don't idealize people. I am no more sensitive to rejection than anyone else. I am in PR and Sales, 80% of my job is rejection. I have been interviewing for a new FT job for years so I don't fall apart or get angry at rejection.
I don't view the world as a bad or dangerous place nor do I look at people in a B&W view. I never idealize anyone. My actions do not have to have immediate rewards. I don't believe that if I am treated badly that I am bad. I have of abandonment. I already had a group of people who I thought were my friends bail and I am totally ok with it. I do feel sad, empty and hopeless sometime. I used to have self injury and suicidal behavior but no cutting for over a year and now SA since 2006. I am not uncertain about my identity I do like to shop but I never spend money I don't have. I am not impulsive with sex and I don't drive so risky driving for me.
I had a crappy childhood and some other crappy things happen to me. Most not my fault but some are. I used to dwell on them and feel like a victim. Not anymore. I had finally got to a place where I didn't feel like I was damaged. 2 hours with this doctor this week, the damage feelings all came back.
I believe this doctor is completely wrong and am trying to figure out my next steps.
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