Hi there,
well a little introduction is always great i suppose, i'm 23 female i was diagnosed with panic disorder & agoraphobia, my parents recently split, my mom has tried to take her life twice in the last 3 years (both times on life support, thank God she pulled through each time) at 14y/o i was severely ill and hospitalized for 10 months, at 15 i had bouts with ED's and SI, I was a cutter only i dont remember... i disasocciated when i did it and would wake up to what i had done, anyhow people talk about nightmares and such once on meds, i'm afraid to remember the hurt & some days im afraid it will start again, i dont know when it started or why exactly and im not sure how it ended, but just when the physical scars begin to fade i fear the emotional ones will come out (again) and im not sure how to deal with this, with taking meds, im terribly confused- do i take psych meds and live again, what if it makes me remember? what if i dont want to remember? what if i want to forget what i already know? ... so so confusing life can be.
Anyone else every experienced disasocciative episodes like this? any advice?