Hi Girl of many faces,
Im in the same boat as you and my heart has been broken into a thousand pieces. I know exactly where you're at and what you're feeling...it is incredibly difficult but If you do have a relationship with God bring it to him first...I recommend waiting before you discuss with this woman how you feel about her, tempting as it may seem...please make a right decision with this, your friend seems lovely but in my case I was the object of ridicule, rumors and gossip...Please, guard your heart at the moment...its hard to pull back but try not to get too attached just yet...I am still getting over my heart break for a woman who said she loved me, we both had amazing chemistry but at the end of the day she was in it for her own reasons, and is now with a man..be careful and seek the counsel of the Lord and the bible...there are many ex gay Christians who know how you feel and their feelings have diminished over time with prayer and counselling..please do not mistake this as denying your feelings because they are there and exist..just be wise