Free coke?? You lucky! Lol I just got into into what u got out of. Always thinking about my ***** *** ex and I turn to hard drugs and alcohol. Blah blah etc. Southern AZ? I live in Tempe and I'm from Willcox AZ! Anyways I'm glad ur doing better. Also if u can score me coke and xanax... Hahah I'm just kidding. I know what u mean tho when it comes time to face reality. The depressions comes back tenfold. I remember when I was smoking speed, weed, and living off liquor. When I finally got a ahold of reality I was so depressed I tries to kill myself a few times. **** sucked!! But I'm a little better now with only a few issues remaining. Lol