When at home, I feel like being myself - calm, free, productive, clearly thinking and wise person making logical decisions. But should any contact be made with outside world, through telephone or coming outside on street, I feel different. I start worrying and feel uncomfortable feeling or imagining that people look at me, feeling tension I often start making mistakes when conversing with people saying illogical things and feel anxiety that makes me "lock up" which especially true when people raise their voice or when someone has bad day for example which makes me feel it is my fault because I know I tend to behave illogically. Maybe I said something stupid because of inability to think and behave like I usually behave at home? I may have good mood but it can be easily spoiled and I could be left feeling that way until next morning because sleeping usually relieves this.

The problem is that such behaviour causes problems because I cannot keep being me and make stupid mistakes while others think I am idiot. It seems in extreme situations I get so "locked up", that I become freightened, lose ability of rational thinking and expressing myself verbally and I can't stop to realize that I need to relax. On the phone with someone, this usually depends on voice and when it is unpleasant, angry it influences the dialog. Sometimes I need time to think, but feel that the other side is waiting for an answer for me and this makes me feel uneasy and stressful as I rush with my speaking throughout call which ultimately can influence the outcome of conversation. I mean while feeling stressful and tense I have less control of what I speak which can ingluence the outcome and can be not in my favor. For example, chatting online with sales agent from my home, when no one's around I can think logically and retain my common sense which can influence the outcome in my favor in case what I am being offered is bad service. However if I spoke with sales agent face-to-face with other people near, I would stress out, feel emotionally vulnerable and wouldn't think with common sense. I wouldn't control myself verbally due to being focused more on my stressful situation and emotions than what I am being offered so my character's complex nature would influence the outcome not in my favor because I would blindly say yes only to not look stupid.

Strangely this happens with me when I communicate with relatives. But there is one person who I feel comfortable with and can be myself with - my mom. Home is what makes me replenish my emotional tolerance and mom is the only person I feel comfortable with. As soon as there is presence of another person, I tend to "lose direction".

According to one answer I was given, people as myself are tend to be wrongly described as socially phobic or socially anxious while correct description would be highly sensitive people (HSP) and such people are indigos - those who"have "2nd perception" so to say. I was suggested meditating (which I have never done) and given a link to "Highly Sensitive People Survival Book" which is sold on Amazon but I really would like to know if meditating and this book can help me because I need to know the way I can control my emotions while being with society and feeling myself just as I feel home and not doing stupid mistakes that only make me look weird.

I would like to know your thoughts on this and I also have questions as follows:

• What causes someone to feel confident and happy when inside the home, but lack confidence and feel anxious when outside the home?
• What interventions are effective in increasing confidence and reducing anxiety in such circumstances?
• Is this phenomena related to high levels of emotional sensitivity?