Wikid, my dad was one of the least bitter people I know. He was capable of violent rages every once in a while, but he didn't hold a grudge. Two ladies I knew very well at the church where I grew up had cancer, and they were amazing, peaceful, wonderful ladies. A friend's small child recently passed away from cancer, and he was the coolest, sweetest kid I ever met. A month before he died, his mom got a kidney stone and he was bustling around getting her drinks and heating pads and bringing her medicine. He spent time trying to raise money for cancer research and was never angry at God or anyone. He was just sad for his parents and sister. YOU are amazing and a great friend. No way in hell did any of you do anything to deserve cancer. Love you. Please hang in there.