oh geez. man, i feel for you! it must be exhausting going back and forth.

but you always have a great attitude about everything, and that goes a long way.
you are doing everything right to be stable, and still you have to go back.

things will improve, you have to believe that. this is yet another bump in the road. Bump, back at hospital. Bump, manic again. Bump, sui thoughts are back.

it won't always be this way.
You have to believe that. You deserve better and soon I know you will find it!