I don't know what I would do without my hot showers. I have gotten to the point where I just stand in the shower & let the water wash all the crap I am going through wash away (or at least that is how it makes me feel). There are days when I have the need to take several showers a day when I feel the need to wash my anxiety away. My anxiety has been so bad at times, I have actually passed out. Luckily I didn't hurt myself, but it was scarry coming to on the bottom of the tub.

The heat is really relaxing, except for the fact that I put my pain patches on my chest & heat isn't good for that because it causes the fentynal to be absorbed quicker. The great relaxing feeling I get from standing under the hot water washing everything away is needed so bad & don't care about anything else. I also love the water washing over my hair too. I know it isn't good to wash hair that often, but too bad for that too. I need the relaxation I get from the shower.

I also realize now what it is like to not be able to shower by myself. A few years ago, I was having parkinson's symptoms. I couldn't walk myself into the bathroom let along get into the tub or coordinate my hands to wash myself. My husband had to help me walk into the bathroom & he had to wash me & my hair. It was a horrible feeling to be that dependent on someone for something that I thought was so simple as taking a shower. After that experience, I can truely appreciate the ability to enjoy taking my own shower & be able to just stand there & let the water wash everything away.

Debbie