Thanks all for the support. I think the next time I go I will try talking about the trust issues I have. There are so many regrets, traumatic memories, and pains both physical and mental that I carry to this day. I hope I can talk about them without being judged. I have a tendency to believe whatever people say about me. Even to the point where I used to think I was gay just because kids in school called me fag. I'm taking a last chance at life. Gonna put my all in it. If I fail, lock me up. If I make it, you'll see me at x-games someday. I have the talent, just not the money.