After a signifigant trauma, you are in shock for some time. As that shock wears off, you begin to question things including yourself. You need time to heal.

There are a lot of us here, learning to heal while living our lives. You can continue with your routine but take the time to embrace what has happened. You cant bury it because it will become part of who you are.

Maybe making a list of things you don't want would be easier then trying to figure out
what you do want.
And may give you some insight to future plans.
I hope this helps!
H.