My wife went to the doctor today and she asked about my anxiety. My doctor said the meds should have made me feel better now. I have an appointment to go see her Monday. I feel really bad today. I just want to say screw everything, leave work and crawl in a hole and hide from the world. I also think I might have borderline personality disorder. A lot of the symptoms seems pretty familar. Maybe I don't. I just know things aren't good and I'm not sure what to do. I emailed a new therapist to try and get an appointment. This week started out okay, but I feel really bad today.

I also think I'm screwing my job up. It's hard to focus and I can't get anything done. I want to quit but I need the money and insurance. I'm not sure, if I am just depressed or if I truly hate my job. I know I used to like it but recently I dread coming in. I used to like the people I worked with, but recently I feel like an outsider. I want people to like me, but at the same time I hate when people come over to talk. I just want to be left alone.