I just went through 5 months of severe suicidal depression. Ended up being hospitalized twice. During this recent hospital stay which, was a month ago, they found a medication that seemed to have really worked. I've been stable for the past month, but 2 days ago, the depression crept back.

I no longer want to wake up and face the day, i feel a lot of anxiety and my confidence is gone. I'm back to social withdrawal and hiding in my bed. How could this have happened so suddenly? I'm so scared of having to go through this again. I don't have it in me to fight. Clinical depression is so very painful and i don't want to put my family through this again...all the worrying etc. I can't go through this anymore. I'm scared i'll end up suicidal again.