1) I just cancelled (via email, without explaining why) because of a work-related conflict after I already re-scheduled once because of another work-related conflict. But, also, I am starting to get those "you-don't-like-me-I-am-unlikeable-anyway" feelings and bolting feels like the thing to do.

2) I did not tell you again that I was feeling suicidal or that I hurt myself over the weekend. I never tell you (unless you ask). Am I supposed to?