i hate my mother for all the things that she used to do to me as a child. i hate my father for the same reasons. i hate my dad because he does not respect my mother or me and i have come to not respect my mother. i hate my mom for hitting me with a flyswatter when i was a kid, for making a fool out of me in school, for making me scream and letting the entire neighborhood hear me. i was often bullied simply because of all the hate. i still have the tendency to seek revenge on some of my old enemies who are far away from me now and if i ever get into college i wouldn't want them to be around me. i have no respect for those who disrespect me. if they can't be nice to me, don't expect me to be nice in return.
for some reason everybody thinks i'm better than those guys. they think that i should not stoop to their level. well when people are testing your patience level and you feel as though they are pushing you over the edge and you don't know what to do next, you start panicking and sometimes you just want to go uggh i can't take this anymore.
all i can say in response is i am capable of being like those guys when they humiliate me. im no different from any other human being and should not be regarded as someone different.