hi my names joey and im 18 years old. im new to this site i just dont know where else to go. lately me and my mom have been having some serious issues. iv been feeling for a while like a black sheep in my family and that the only person who genuinely cares about me is my grandmother. my mom has kicked me out twice granted it was my fault due to a drug addiction but the last time i became clean and moved back in. they acted like they cared for about 2 weeks and then all of a sudden it went back to normal. i feel a cold feeling when it comes to my mom and have since before the addiction. i have an older brother and i see the way she looks at him theres a certain look in her eyes. she hugs him all the time tell him that she loves him and even talks differently when we are on the phone i can hear the different tone compared to when she talks to him. with him its hi honey! and with me its yes? or what do you need? or simply hi. i cant remember the last time i hugged my mom and everytime my brother walks in the door (he doesnt live with us but comes frequently) she jjumps up says hi honey! and gives him a lobe loving hug. she recently kicked me out cancelled my health insurance and told me i was dead to her and that my dad wanted an abortion and she would leave it at that. granted i said some very hateful things to her too. they are buying my brother a house and furniture and paying for the wedding. iv honestly felt under him since i can remember. idk what it is and i wish she would understand how this makes me feel. i feel like its me against my family. i dont know what to do. feel free to ask any question to get a better understanding of the story i would just love some help.