I know, I can be a bit controlling. But if I don't control my life, who will? But like you've said, I've put everything away. if only I could put my mind away in a box. lol And that damned cute *** teddy bear!! I can't sleep without him. I've bought myself plenty of gadgets. Probably more then I even need because I'm a tech junky. If it plugs into the wall I'm already fascinated. lol. I'm trying to take it easy. I really am. Everything that I used to love has become .. obsolete now. I find joy in nothing but getting as high and drunk as I can possibly get. Sometimes it turns to be quite the challenge for myself. I do want to get some peace. It's just so hard. I wish they made a drug that makes you forget about a particular passed. Imagine how rich that person would right now. I still have things in a box from like 6 years ago that Ive never even seen. Is that weird?