Yes, I go through phases of missing my son. I waited for him to become an adult and when I contacted him, there was no bond and I was pretty much shoved off. that hurt . Last night I had a dream his mom and I met again and we had a healing talk together. That felt really good but then I woke enough to realize she was the one who helped turn him against me, so I can relate. I dont know if it hurts more but I can verify it hurts a lot. Hugs to everyone.