Feel like I'm on the edge of the slope again. Feeling sad & lonely even though I'm out around people for a couple hours most days. I don't like socializing. I'm very much an introvert, but I try. I know I shouldn't take OTC's along with my prescribed meds, but I often get caught up in taking just a little extra to take the edge off of my despair and anxiety. It doesn't help and just makes me worse. Why do I do it? In the moment I act rashly knowing just a little more will knock me out and I'll sleep. Sleep is escape from the world. I wish I didn't have to, but sometimes I just find it so hard being here.