I don't know if stuff has started coming out because I started T, or if I started T because stuff was about to start coming out. (I didn't have a doctor refer me or anything, I just found a private therapist.)

A few sessions in, my T said "it seems to me that you are bursting at the seams". He is right. This week he told me I am "going very fast" in therapy. Not a criticism, just an observation. He is right. And, as I said to him at the time, I don't want to go this fast. But it's like there are all these shelves that are suddenly falling down, and now they're all collapsing, and everything is falling off them, onto me.

And I don't know if it's good that this is all just coming out (it doesn't feel good, given the hurt/fear/pain/terror/sadness that comes with it) or if it's going to be the end of me. And I guess I am just wondering if, once you let these feelings out, it can get better. Or if I'm just going to feel like this forever. T says it can get better. I really want to believe him.

I'm not sure this is in the right section at all, sorry, tried to figure out how to delete it but I can't see how to.