So I went to the hospital. There are 2 hospitals here. It. Wasn't that great of an experience. I was in a very bad mixed episode. I'm on some heavy doses.

Zyprexa 40mgs, Depakote 1000. I'm on that until the lamictal is at a therapeutic dose. Zoloft 100, doxepin 100 mgs., clonazepam 1mg and 1 more that I can't remember.

I didn't go to the hospital I went to before this one I only saw the pdoc once. The majority of the staff there seemed like they hated their jobs. I really liked the pdoc their were a lot of schizophrenics in there. My state has done some major cutbacks here. Anyways I left against their medical advice. I left bc the staff ( which were just RN's. Would just ignore u if you needed help with something.

I was in a severe mixed episode. But the good part is I was able to go to the other hospital, to get my meds and I met some really cool ppl in there at the hospital. I feel really bad for the schizophrenics in there. They only had 1 pdoc for 16 patients. Anyway survived. I couldn't remember dates etc. I was on the verge of psychosis. I believe now that I personally need to be on an AP. I'm hoping to switch to latuda.

I was agitated, angry, crying, paranoid. It's gonna take awhile for me to stabilize. Amazingly my son's father took him until I stabilize.

I fricken hate having bipolar. However I have no doubt I have it now. Sorry for such negativity.