I keep avoiding taking them, even after several reminders. I'll play with them in my hands, break open the capsules and play with the dust (I'm on lithium), or just flat out lie to my SO and say I took them when I didn't...

I know I'm depressed, and this is something I would normally never do, but I don't even think about it. Even looking at my meds makes me nervous or nauseous, or angry. And I know theres probably some really bad consequences about it but idk.... I'm seriously thinking of just going off them completely at this point.