Ok Jer ~ First off, you're not doing yourself or anyone else ANY good by being wasted drug, or high on whatever substance you're using to escape life. Sorry, but life is going to be there when you get sober. All of us have to face life, whether we like it or not. You need to learn how.

How about getting some help for your drug & alcohol use? Maybe you're not an addict or alcoholic, but you need help. You don't know how to live life on life's terms. You've gotta figure that out, or else have someone teach you! But you can't go on like this, or your life is going to be completely ruined. You're gonna lose your job and everything else you've wanted! Stop escaping into drugs and alcohol. Learn to COPE! Get therapy and/or go to AA or NA. But get some help.

As far as this girl goes, I'd contact her now. It's been 3 months, and that's a plenty long enough "break." If she wants a longer "break" then she just doesn't want to get back together at all. In fact, I would have thought that she would have come back before now! I sure wouldn't want to be away from my bf that long.

I don't know what she's trying to prove by taking this long of a break, and cheating, etc. If she's still considering herself in a relationship with YOU, then she's being pretty rotten about it. If in HER miind, you two aren't a couple anymore, it would be nice if she'd tell YOU about it.

You need to talk to her and see where things stand. I'd do it soon, and get things cleared up. I wish the very best for you. I hope things work out the way you want them too, but somehow I wonder if she's truly worth it. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee