Sorry, I've moved this post to "http://forums.psychcentral.com/relationships-communication/268695-not-your-typical-heartbreak-its-long-sorry.html#post2919205"

I've got a good discussion going on over there. You've brought up some good points I would like to share there as well.
I've already responded to much of what you said.

Drugs and alcohol to me are just something to pass the time up, and well, time is all we need, right? I am seeking help. I made this account

As for as contacting her, this seems to be a conflicting arguement. I, too, am amazed she hasn't hit me up yet. And she has told me, very bluntly, that we are over. I didn't respond to that very well. I actually wish I could go back and NOT be a dxck about it.

I know right? Is she really worth all this damned anguish? I feel I deserve much, much better.