It sounds like you're rather optimistic about moving on, which is great! I don't know if it helps...but if you check out my thread: 5 years roller coaster...or whatever I titled it...I have a little paragraph that I wrote the week my ex and I split...I was feeling sooooo much despair....but I feel a million times better than that now....when I wrote that I was ready to do anything it took to make the pain just disappear...as I mentioned to you before I got bad into coke and xanax and everything...but I would have been much happier to just have died in my sleep...I know that sounds so morbidly sad....But even though I still have that place in me that misses him, I'm far from those feelings when it comes to him anymore.