So sorry you have had to suffer such terrible abuse. Sannah is right--their is a thing called
"Auditory Imprints";which is when the negative
stuff we heard towards us becomes so deeply
imprinted in the child's mind,that the child later
thinks it originates from him/herself!
So knowing this,you can now DROP IT and start to
be kind to yourself--that negativity does not
belong to you. I was impressed with your creative talents (I draw+paint too),so please
fight to make the most of them,and fight for the
child you once were--you are all she's got.
I shall say a prayer for you.
God Bless,
BLUEDOVE.