Thanks for all of this feedback. I wish the people at the University would accept the facts about this medication and not continue to claim that what I did was an intentional violation of conduct rules, but they are only psychologists so they see things in terms of behavior and don't know very much about medications and chemical changes in the brain that are all over the place if you simply do a Google search.

I'm still unable to get enough sleep, partly due to all the agitation and distress, and also due to the fact that the new sleep medication doesn't work as well.

That's affecting me very negatively right now because when I get enough good sleep, I can let things go more easily and re-orient myself. Right now I can barely concentrate and am overwhelmed by all the events and how out of hand things have become. Also overwhelmed by how much work I have to do with very little time.

The program is very demanding even when you are in perfect condition. Though I'm not quite as emotional distressed today, I am feeling like this whole thing is somehow very unfair and can't believe it is actually happening. I hope that doesn't mean I'm going in the direction of dissociation, but perhaps sometimes dissociation from the emotions involved and feeling the whole thing is unreal can be protective. I'm not sure.

I do have a session later today so I'll have a chance to get a friendly hug and someone who really cares and understands me deeply. He is a very cheerful, optimistic person, so just being around him helps me push away negative things.