I can't read the rest without getting angry
sorry ! He ONLY PUSHED ME !
Get REAL !
You almost sound grateful. WAKE UP ! And get out !
Abusive relationships are dangerous in WHATEVER FORM. He's 'ONLY' pushed you ! Isn't that enough ?
Next, you'll be telling yourself, it's your fault.
You want confirmation it's not as bad as hitting you ?
Read the warning signs. Get out ! You know the answer, abuse is abuse !
Maybe not what you want to admit to yourself. But wake up ! One push, is a push too far. Get out, fast.