If you don't want treatment/western Medicine traditional pharma treatment, I think that's ok and your right and choice. But I have known you long enough now to watch you address the ... Situation / disorder who knows yet what it really is... I watch you think things through, analyze, talk about, use creative outlets. These are all therapeutic. So maybe you're choosing your own type of therapy that works for you and your family and your budget, etc. I say believe in yourself, create your own definition of treatment. Of course if you get to a really unsafe place check yourself in somewhere, I trust you would and I know I would do the same for mine or others safety if I ever have to. I've come close to calling a 5150 on myself more than I'd like to say.