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Originally Posted by Secretum
Whenever things are hard for me, I think about sui. I'm a coward; I've never attempted and I probably never will. But I think about it a lot.
Tonight, I think that I should kill myself because:
-My friends don't really care
-I'm pathetic, lazy, and never will change
-I keep thinking about it but never act; if I was really a sincere person, I'd act on my thoughts
None of that makes any sense, does it? Why am I like this? Instead of thinking about how to fix the problems in my life, I automatically think about sui.
Tonight has not been very good for me, and I don't even know why. My thoughts just sort of turned really dark, and I don't feel like they make much sense.
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I know, for me, thinking about suicide can be as simple as knowing I have a "way out" if life gets too much. Often knowing that, I can hold on. As for being a coward, you are courageous for living on.
Your friends care, your family cares. I've seen the effects suicide can have. I know how my attempts have hurt my friends and family. They may accept if I suicide, but they will love me till the end.
As someone else said, there would be a lot fewer people in the world if being lazy and unable to change meant death.
As for thinking, have you ever thought about anything else you would never do: shoplift, hit the annoying driver who cut you off? It's not insincere to choose not to do what you've thought of doing.
I am glad they are just thoughts, I want you to stay alive.