I will reply to those who need me.. But this will be my only post, from just me to you all..
for I am working out some feelings, that I need to work on..
I have been asked not to post "triggering " thoughts because it could cause harm to others, so I will not do that any more..
I am wroking on it on my own, till I get it done and ask Doc's permssion to post it..

I will not trigger anyone any more.
I will not hurt anyone anymore
I am sorry for doing this so publicy, but this is the only way I see I can do this, and be safe for all....

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