Hi...I'm new here and just read your post. I can't say I know how you feel but I CAN say I can empathize to a certain degree. In as much that I understand the feelings of uselessness and basic self loathing for lack of a better phrase. I understand how incredibly difficult it is to feel so down. I was on Prozac years ago and went off of it because it made me feel emotionally flat lined. I'm not for or against medication. I truly believe some people need that extra bit of 'help' that, for whatever reason, they are unable to give themselves on their own. I am so sorry that you are feeling what you're feeling. I have no great words of wisdom for you but just wanted to let you know that there are others out there (including myself) who 'hear' you.