so I have had issues in the last week of many various degrees that I have had more frequent and worse panic attacks then usual and I really need to nip this in the bud. I hate dealing with this and its just not fun to deal with, espically when it creates physical pain.

but I am suppoused to be meeting with my phytraist this coming week i think so hopefully I can ask about being put on new additonal anxiety pills to help things out.

some how to my social anxiety has gotten far worse as well.

there is a particular area of downtown that I dislike going anywhere near. and avidly avoid terribly so....its the area that a guy I was dating lives and he owns a bar in town.We remain good friends and he seems to care about me quite a bit....but I have so many emotions still tied up in when we were together I can't bring myself to be around where he is even if its only the side walk up the street that connects to his place.

it makes some sense...but to a degree its also odd to...cause now I just don't go down town hardly at all any more what so ever. Where as before I went out all the time... but if I was to see him and I he would attempt to talk to me which yes he would...and there is just soo much confusion going on I just can't cope with it.