Hi Shady,
Take it easy and just allow yourself to relax and rest while you are in the hospital. Try not to worry about anything else going on out in the world (easier said than done). Let the doctors help you. Maybe you can arrange for someone to visit you daily and remind you that it will get better?
I am so sorry to hear you're going through a rough time - I wish you all the best, please keep us updated, we're thinking of you! I know I don't know you but I just want to say that your existence and life on this earth is important and worthwhile!! I really want you to stick around and learn to get better, there is soo much that life has to offer. You can learn to find it. All the best x