Earthmamma,thank you for sharing that. I'm sorry for your pain. I think I can relate to the ramblings in therapy leading to where they need to go. I think something like that is happening to me. This last week I suddenly began to feel profound abandonment rage and grief as well as disappointment in my parents and in the world. I have never felt this in so much depth before, nor connected to it as deeply, even through years of therapy where I've talked and even cried about various things. I guess the one issue that has been 'stuck' inside me is the need for a m to take care of me. Even though I know this logically and have spent years talking about it, I have never worked through it, never really let go of hoping for it, so I've never grieved for my own m.

I know your experience is different but I connected with it in my own way.