Fixated. To work closely with and be vulnerable with someone for 2.5 years and for you to feel not liked or special to them must be horrible. I totally understand how you're feeling about that. And i think for me that might even be a deal-breaker. It's not that you're asking to be her most favourite person in the whole world, but it would be nice to feel valued, that she enjoyed working with you, she liked to see you and looked forward to your appointments, that maybe there was an affection or fondness there. I don't think that is too much to ask.