I want to hurt myself so bad that I'm shaking. I don't even care about who sees anymore I just want to do it over and over and over till there's no room left on my arms. Just thinking about it is giving me cold chills and I feel sick to my stomach just thinking about it but I want to so bad. I probably shouldn't have posted this but I have noone to talk to about this and I need to get it out before the feeling gets so bad that I do something.