You mentioned in another post about so much coming out at once, and I think that makes a looming break in therapy much scarier. Let her know your thoughts now, so you will have time to maybe slow things down a bit before the break. That has helped me.

My pattern seems to be that I dread the break, but I'm fine during the break (T? what T?), then I am pulled away (punish her by pushing her away?) when we resume. It can take a session or two to get back in the groove This is after 6 years with this T. In the beginning, I would have all these wild fantasies about T deciding to retire, deciding to move (to where she was visiting), to drop me as a patient, and any other form of abandonment I could dream up. It was very scary and painful at the time. I learned to speak about my fears and that helped, not only to process them but so she knew what I tended to experience when faced when a break.

I have taken suggestions from PCers about using the time I would normally be having my session to do something like writing in a journal, or just doing something special for myself like going out to dinner with a good book (whatever sounded enjoyable at the time), and that has been a good suggestion.