ok here goes.... I think I might be gay. There I said it Idk though, I'm not sure and this is very confusing. This is the main reason for me wanting to hurt myself and for me being depressed and feeling like a worthless freak. I'm not saying people who are gay are worthless or a freak, I just don't know how to find out for sure. I am engaged to a guy who treats me good most of the time. The emotional attraction is still there very much, but my physical attraction seems to be only for girls. I mean he is a very good looking guy. Blonde hair, green eyes, thin and tall. The type of guy I would normally chase after in a heartbeat, and I'm engaged to him. You would think I'd be all over him and everything. I want to be close to him, just not so much in a sexual way. But I want to want it from him. I've made myself do things with him a few times to make him happy, but he can always tell that I'm not into it. I'm so confused and idk what to do :/