i recently (like a week ago) told 2 of my best friends about my si(theyre the only people that know) , but it was via phone, and after seeing them i found that i couldnt talk to them about it in person, i dont really know why, i just really didnt want to, i felt llike it was none of their business. I know that theyve been talking to eachother about me, and i feel like theyre working against me or something and i sort of feel more alone than ever and have been contemplating just telling them that ive stopped but keep going so they can just sort of leave me alone. It's weird cause theyve been my best friends for about 8 years but right now i just want them to shut up and leave me alone. i don't really know whats going on in my head but thats just how i feel i guess?