Thanks, everyone. Today's been hard; I've been obsessing about it a lot. I tried calling my mom last night (which is progress, because I'm pretty bad at reaching out), but she had her own stuff going on and couldn't listen. That really hurt. I want to talk to anyone, another family member or a friend, but I'm afraid of getting the same reaction. I've even considered calling my t, but I don't want to bother her if she's busy with something.