I just wanted to say that I too felt these things and it took a very long time to finally get past it. I know that feeling of such intense grief that all you can do is moan. It is terrible, but you can get through it. I'm so glad that you've found a new therapist. For me, my new therapist relationship has been so different and much more healing than the one I left behind with my former therapist.

You can get through this. It will hurt like hell, but you can do it.

It just takes time, to be honest. Time and the ability to work through all those left over feelings with someone who can contain them for you. A genuinely qualified therapist who is willing to put your needs in front of their own, and who genuinely wants to understand what you're going through and be your support.

I know that I came out of the other side by putting up a wall with my new therapist for a long time. I put an emotional boundary there for myself so that I could deal better. It had a lot to do with trust. Was this new therapist going to leave his practice on short notice like my last T? Until I could be sure that I wasn't going to get dropped, I was scared to trust and let my new T help.

It takes time and I think it's natural to be a little weary in the beginning, but finding support that you can trust and rely on is so important - even if it's not a therapist.

I hate to give a time frame because it's sort of a let down to know from a reality point of view, but I didn't really trust and lean on my therapist for support for probably a year. I still was crying over the whole experience of my former T and termination for more than a year and a half after.

At first, the emotions are so overwhelming that you cry like someone in your life has died. You gradually cry less and less. Then it's just once in a while, and then you are just free of it.

It will come, but it will take time.