I can understand and relate to your feelings. I totally get it. Although our situations are a bit different, I also look 'fine on the outside' or 'unaffected.' Back when i was at the worst of my ED (at that time it was anorexia) i did not meet the "weight" criteria for being anorexic so I felt like such a failure..even though there was a problem, it really didn't look like it at all. now I am at the other end of the spectrum and look just fine, so I feel like nothing I am doing as far as the purging and things (which has really amped up this past year) is not doing anything, so I don't feel like it's worth bringing up to my T.

Sorry I rambled on about me in an attempt to let you know I understand...and I think (I am definitely not a doc so this is not a 'diagnosis' or anything,) but regardless of the weight, you had been struggling with the behaviors for 10 years, and it was affecting you emotionally. I think that is the huge part of the ED, is the emotional trauma/wear and tear that it puts you through, rather than the weight itself. That is just the ED talking trying to get you to think you are not worth the treatment.

Do you have a therapist you can talk to about it? Just curious. ED comes in all shapes and sizes and forms.

I hope this helped. I am sorry if I rambled.

Welcome to PC